intoxicating addiction

yes, i'm addicted to my intoxicating lil' baby boy. looking at him makes me feel so proud and warm-hearted... his big-doey eyes, lil' button nose, his gleeful laughter and his intoxicating addictive scent. the bond we have is strong and affectionate, making me a proud mother. but he no longer seems to be a little baby... he has grown so much in these past few months, i wish i could slow things down and stop him from growing up too fast! of course that would be impossible as nature intends the opposite way... all i can do is cherish those lovely moments i have had with him and look forward to the new cute things that he's going to do.

it's impossible to be bored with my lil' baby dinosaur... every day he can come up (unintentionally, obviously) with funny antics, and no matter how tired or moody i am, looking at his silly grin melts everything away. i guess this is what they call, LOVE. even watching him sleep is entertaining! =D

part of me wants him to start walking or talking but another part of me doesn't. what can i expect when he reaches the stage? will he be walking and bumping into everything? or when he starts to talk, what will he be saying? and when his brain starts to mature and develope further, what should we be teaching him? different languages? maths? haha... we obviously want him to be a smart boy... or should we just let him develope on his own while we guide him as he learns? being responsible for the little is not easy!

what a dull birthday

5th february 2006 marks my 23rd birthday but man, was it dull! no celebration... no presents... (well except ang paus from me daddee and mummee)... no cards... just sweet birthday messages from friends and family and a morning birthday song from hubby.. haha... actually now that i've compiled it, it doesn't sound so bad now does it?
at least it's my first birthday with my little baby khalis... of course he doesn't know what day it is, it just feels special to experience something with him for the very first time... a special day with the usual cries to soothe and tantrums to calm... motherhood does not understand nor have the chance to sit and relax (or have a great birthday celebration for that matter), i have to accept that...
but growing up celebrating each of my birthday makes it hard not to... maybe i'm also getting a little to old for big celebrations anyway... and besides, hubby never really thrives on celebrations, heck, he even forgets his own! =D
well i guess this year marks the beginning of no big birthday celebrations and many more quiet ones to come... hhmm... at least i still have my hubby and lil khalis to go through them... maybe it'll be different when he gets older and understand a little bit more about mummy's infatuation with celebrating birthdays! haha.. we'll see... we'll see... =)

my baby, the lil' dinosaur

baby khalis is about 7 months old now... curious lil' boy... explores and destroys everything that comes into his path... it's amazing how he finds things to put into his mouth.. we've found tissue pieces, paper, anything that can be torn apart.. he'll be happily chewing them.. he really loves to play with things that aren't suppose to such as our remote control, eyewears, handphones, PDAs.. the list goes on. he's even left his little teeth mark on my brand new mobile phone! =D sentimental value i guess...
don't be fooled by his big-eyed adorable look... he can be a grumpy, cranky lil dinosaur! complains a whole lot before falling asleep... 'flies' around when he's in his walker... he'll be grunting and screaming with his arms outstretched... sigh... what a sight...
he just cannot stay still! i think the moment he does, it's a signal something's wrong.. hehe.. he likes to crawl all over the place and climb onto people.. stepping on our tummies and pinching our faces! curious i tell you... but i love it when he looks straight at you and tries to 'kiss' you on your nose or chin, though it usually ends up with slobber! =D