Friday, January 30, 2009

My latest toy

Phone conversation with my Dad.

Me: Hi, Dee

Dad: Ah Yan, ah Dee here ar.. What you want for your birthday?

Me: Har? Birthday ar.. Errr I'm not sure..

(He caught me offguard as I wasn't expecting that question)

Me: Oh, oh I want a camera! A Nikon D60 would be nice.. Hehe

Dad: A camera? What for? You use wan meh? When you gonna use it? Why you want it for?

(Yes he likes to interrogate me that way)

Me: Hehe.. Err.. Use to take pictures? Haha.. It's ok Dee, you can get me anything. I don't mind.

Dad: Hmmph.. Ok lah I'll see what I can find.

Me: Ok, Dee..

After we hung up I didn't think much of it cause I wasn't expecting him to look for what I wanted. When he said 'I'll see what I can find', I assumed he meant looking for something totally non-camera related.

Later that day he called again.

Me: Hi, Dee!

Dad: Ah Yan ar.. Daddy got you an Olympus camera. Better than the Nikon one.

Me: Har?? Really? Haha I was just kidding!

Dad: Yeah it's your birthday present so it's ok..

Me: Hehe ok thanks Dee..

So my Dad bought me an Olympus E420 DSLR. It comes with a twin kit lens and a camera bag. He also bought me an 8gb memory card and he was clear to let me know how much it cost! =D So typical of him but I'm thankful and yes a little spoilt as well. The precious pressie is worth RM2300 ;D

A moment to pray

Yesterday my mum received grieving news of her 2nd sister's death. I was about to leave to her place and carpool to visit my grandma in Puchong.

My aunt has been in and out of hospitals for the past few months due to her kidney problems and colon cancer. She had one of her kidneys removed recently and was on a long-course of medication. She was admitted again on the 1st day of CNY and took her last breath Thursday morning.

We didn't want to upset my grandma so no one told her of the news but when we went to see her, she was crying and told us that she dreamt of her daughter's death. My mum and I looked at each other - wide-eyed. She then said you don't have to tell me, I already know she died.

For a moment my senile grandma seemed to have come alive from the clouds in her head. She who has trouble remembering me and most of her grandchildren (and great-grandchildren for that matter) and has been acting like a child again, spoke with such grief and normalcy - it was somehow a comforting moment for me to see her in her usual self as how I remember her to be when I was younger.

It's been a part gloomy start to the year of the Ox and I'm definitely looking for a brighter and happier note.

CNY

Our 1st day started out slow with the kids getting up early, breakfast and so on.. Khalis refused to wish us Gong Xi Fa Chai.. Instead he says Happy Chinese New Year! Such a mat salleh boy =D

We got ready to leave for CNY lunch at my dad's in Sunway. Every time we meet up with my dad's side of uncles and aunts, I can't help but feel anxious. I know Hubby doesn't really enjoy seeing them because of their drinking habits and loudness and I always wonder what could possibly happen this time.

Last year my dad offered to get us KFC cuz of the non-halal food which was fine.. Only thing is that there were plates of fried pork on the table where we were eating! Hubby and I just kept quiet although we felt uneasy throughout lunch.

This year, they prepared a separate pot of soup and some prawns, fish and abalone ala steamboat style for us which was very sweet of them indeed. BUT... my dear cousin brought his dog over and it started sniffing at our feet the moment we arrived. Don't get me wrong I love dogs but we try to teach the boys that we shouldn't play with them because of our religion.

The worst part is that they were feeding the poor dog beer!! Great! Beer and dog in the house! It was woozy after a while and they put him in the garden. I felt so uncomfortable sitting on the sofa and trying not to think of where the dog has been. Kids were playing on the floor it was just icky!

Mycousin's gf (who only found out we're Muslims while we were there) then said smthg like 'let's just go-lah! The dog so troublesome!' This was after the dog came in again and Kd wanted to touch it and out of reaction I pulled him back and told him no touch. Kd bawled thinking I scolded him. They left soon after.. Not that I want to complain but where's the courtesy and respect? Right?

I have a problem bout commenting on the liquors (and now dogs) to my family cause I don't want to turn out to be the 'mar fan' one. I've tried suggesting having dinners at halal restaurants but only to fall on deaf ears. Hence, we try to avoid big family dinners for the sake of our sanity and we rather makan with dad alone (or with my siblings and stepmum). I want my boys to spend time with their koong-koong as much as possible in a comfortable and 'clean' environment =D

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Smurf or chipmunk?

Kd boy will turn 2 in March but he's still as small as ever. He's standing at 83cm tall and weighing at only 9.5kg! That's a mere 0.3kg as compared to 4 months ago.. I took him to the clinic today since he woke up crying and tugging at his ears.. He was in a pretty lousy mood that poor boy!

Thankfully doc prescribed him some antibiotics and paracetamol to counter attack the ear infection before it worsens (that would be incredibly painful and uncomfortable!). Doc was quite surprised at his weight gain (or the lack of it) but assures me that as long as he's eating well and consistently active, I shouldn't worry too much.

My little smurf (as Lia's Hubby calls him although he reminds me more of Alvin the Chipmunk) may be small but he has a temper (oh yes he does!) and don't think about bullying him cause he can shove and smack you silly =D

Friday, January 16, 2009

Dreams..

My dreams have been a little whacky lately.. Almost too dramatic I can write short scripts with them! But there's one recurring dream (almost like a movie, really). which puzzles me. It's with the same guy and I get this dream every few weeks.. From dating and flirting to having a relationship with him (yet all this while I am married with kids so it's an affair! Gasp!)

In real life, he's a good friend from high school who is humble and sweet. Admittedly, he's a catcher (yes girls do get attracted to him immediately) but as well as I know, he and I would never be an item (if I were single that is!)

So what are my dreams telling me? That I had a crush on him but never realized it? Or he's had a crush on me but never revealed it?

In my dreams last night, I was over at his house just cuddling and having a good conversation. We were affectionate but not in a sexual way.. I woke up feeling guilty as though it really happened! Maybe it's the lack of cuddling with Hubby lately that resulted in these telling dreams.. He's been back late and sometimes I sleep early and most nights we're staring at our notebooks trying to finish up our work...

*Shrugs* Maybe dramatic people like me gets dramatic dreams, eh? =D

Monday, January 12, 2009

...and here's 2009...

So much has happened since my last entry.. Some good.. some not so good.. Some happy days and a lot of 'I wanna tear my hair out' days..

Anyway, boys are bickering on a daily basis.. Kd has such a stubborn streak (not from me, really!) followed by his foul temper. He's started throwing things when he doesn't get his way and screams bloody murder at his brother for taking something away from him (understandably it is annoying when that happens).. He's almost 2 now but he still can't form simple sentences.. Actually he still can't quite say a lot of things except for his famous exasperated 'NO...'

Khalis started his 4 year old class and he's enjoying it.. no problems there.. (phew!) He's also learned the art of scrunching up his face when he's angry while folding his arms at chest.. as well as throwing a fit (yes screaming, stomping, flailing arms etc..) when things don't go his way (especially when he has to leave the playground or when he's enjoying a certain activity)..

They do drive me nuts and sometimes I feel numbed to their squabbling.. I can't scream when they're screaming cause obviously they won't hear me (or choose not to!) so I just have to breathe.. get myself together and wait til they're done.. Usually it works depending on how long-winded they can get..

Definitely a challenge these days with these monsters of mine.. They both need constant affection but they become possessive when I cuddle with one.. It sure is tough to spend equal amount with 2.. I've tried taking Khalis out on a 1-on-1 date and he really enjoys his Mummy-time.. I should do it often..

I would think I'm a good mother but I know there's plenty of room to improve.. Bringing up well-mannered, good behaviour, positive and happy kids are such an importance - it's in overdrive!

Wish it would be a great 2009 filled with laughter and happy tears =D