Friday, December 03, 2010

End of 2010

Last month of 2010. So what's been happening? :) Loads.. Good and bad and exciting..
Things I'm proud of.. Things I'm not very proud of.. Made new friends, lost 1 (yes just that 1).. Cried.. Laughed.. Went through (and still going through) an emotional rollercoaster..

Fell in love with Australia - Perth, Melbourne, Sydney, Canberra.. Loved the experience of adventuring in a campervan.. Loved exploring in Perth on my own (and with a helpful guide).. I have yet to write about my campervan journey with the family.. I'd do it in another post :p

Spent time with my thoughts and sanity.. Reevaluate my life, my relationships and friendships. Went through a very dark and sombre time 6 months ago only to emerge with a clearer view and a steadier head on my shoulders. I know where I stand and I now know not to have high expectations in anything for the disappointment would only tear me apart like a raging storm.

Found new jobs and did some work for a charity event. Did silly things with my boys and still learning to bring them up well.. Still learning to grow up although I prefer being a kid.. ;) Oh and I bungeed! What an awesome experience.. My next aim is to bungee in NZ for their 43m and 134m jump :) No I'm not crazy just like to feed on the adrenaline pump once in a while..

I don't believe in making resolutions for the new year. Set a certain goal - sure. But if you want a change, you'd do it when you're ready. Right now, I want to enjoy my time with friends and family (over awesome food if possible hehe).. I want to look back when I'm older and remember the great times I've had had.. And stay positive in every situation for negativity eats you up like a plague..

So what am I looking forward to in 2011? A new home.. A new environment.. And a new baby :)

Friday, April 30, 2010

Gomen ne..

Sore wa amarini mo itai, atashi sore ni iku yo ni shite..
Gomen ne.. Atashi wa baka da..

Sore wa fukano de..

Watashi wa iku koto ga deki nai..
Jikan..
Jikan ga iyahite kureru desho u..
Soshite, atashi sore ni itte morao u..

Ie zan'nen..
Watashi ga anata ni yoku shi tai o atashi aishite kudasai..

Moichido..
Gomen ne..
Kono baka o yurushite kudasai..


Tuesday, April 13, 2010

September

Was looking forward to meeting you in September.
To hold you..
To stare at your beauty..
To smell the fresh scent on you..

Course changes and took an unexpected turn
As challenging as it is..
It was a painful, heart wrenching decision..

You were not my flesh and blood..
You were only in my thoughts..
Yet you were very real to me
And affected me deeply in every way..

May God have mercy and forgive
May He take and place you in Heaven
May your soul be at peace and
May you be loved unconditionally..

I will miss you from this moment on
And I will remember you come September..

~Su