baby check-up

Went for my 4th month baby check-up today and had an ultra-sound scan. Baby moving well and pretty active too.. Alhamdulillah!
Somehow the feelings of excitement and joy fill us all over again. I guess it doesn't matter if you're expecting your first or your fifth child, everything seems so surreal the moment you see it on the screen.
We still can't tell its gender yet, too soon to tell. =) I wouldn't mind another boy, really. Although having a girl would be quite fun i guess! haha.. The doctor was more concern about whether its one baby or two.. I think Amer would faint if we're expecting twins! =D
Baby Khalis is still as active as ever! The only time when i have my own time is when he's taking his nap. He's able to say 'ball' and 'bus' hehe so cute... Still going through separation anxiety. He'll be shouting 'ma ma' on top of his lungs the moment he can't see me. Amer says he's overprotective over me.. in a way i find it cute that someone needs me but in another, it's as though there's an invisible leash that i'm tied to...
Other than that, i feel a wave of relief to see this other little human being inside me.. Kind of like a reassurance that i am REALLY pregnant.. again.. =p

moving day!

We are finally moving into our new place! Been packing like crazy since Tuesday night. Didn't realize we have so much stuffs! Hubby left with the movers to our house at about 12pm and i'm here taking care of baby.. hehe.. lucky me.. ;)
I hope baby Kel will get used to living in our new house... It'll be more quiet around there... No more aunties of his to play with.. no more hearing the gate open and running downstairs to see who came home... no more 'hi baby!!!', the usual greet he gets when someone else in the house sees him... well of course unless we come back every now and then so that nobody will miss him terribly... he is the main attention of the house afterall! =D
I'm pretty excited about moving... been waiting for ages and the day has finally arrived... our very own home... our very own COLOURFUL home... it's like a Barbie Doll's house! =D
Well it's all the unpacking and arranging our things that's making me feel 'bleh' right now and I hope we'll get everything done ASAP!

what i saw at IKEA

The other day when we went household stuffs hunting (for the upteenth time) at IKEA, we saw this family of four who were a little rough and loud. The father was scolding his son (who's probably about 4/5 years old) and the sister was crying. The little boy was burly and tough looking, kinda like his father... and he had this sneering, 'give me what you've got' look on his face.
The mother (raging one, mind you) was chasing after him, hitting him with a stick! He was wailing in the store and the mother was furious. So, the more he cried, the more the father yelled at him, the more the mother chased after him with the stick. The best part is, he started hitting his mother!
The saying "Monkey see, monkey do" applies very well here. You see, what you do to your children is what they will get used to. This is where violence starts out and we don't need these kind of behaviour or even these kind of people around! They will eventually learn to hit other kids and think it's alright. It's not like their parents are going to teach them not to bully or hit other people when they themselves get the same treatment at home (and in public, shamefully).
I felt like telling her to stop. Afterall, you simply don't have kids to beat them and lash your anger out on them. It's not right. They need guidance and boundaries, the more you hit them, the more they rebel.
But looking at her scares me even. And besides, who am I to tell her how to teach her kids? I am afterall, just another 23 year old young mother of 1.. and a half.. =)

Save me from myself

It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you gotta be
Everything's changing
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

And when I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waiting
Your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself
From myself, yes
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
Well some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow maybe shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm crying
'Cause when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smiling
You always save me from myself
From myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my wallsY
ou've been my strength, so strong

And don't ask me why I love you
It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
A better woman to myself
To myself, myself
You're gonna save me from myself

adapted from Christina Aguilera's 'Back to Basics' album